Tonight is one of them, distance is getting to me. It doesn’t seem to matter how long it has been since we have been together or until we will see each other again, it just sucks. I want to be there for him when he comes home and I want to hold him as he sleeps. 

I remember so well how happy I was just to get a sentence message from him a year ago and now talking on the phone for hours or seeing each other every 4 to 6 weeks isn’t enough. I think it is so much different because he isn’t deployed and we actually could be together, considering the circumstances, but we aren’t. We have two different lives in two different states and I hate this the most. 

I wish I could give you a kiss good night and sleep in your arms. I miss you so much my sweet boy. I can’t wait until the time that we don’t have to leave each other. You are my world Derek and I am more than happy to have the world that I do. I hope everything with the week is going well and I can’t wait to hear whatever you want to tell. Honey I love you more and more everyday. You’re the love of my life and my other half, simple as that.

A bus to a train to a plane to another plane to Derek.

Its almost 5:20 and I’ve already been up for an hour and a half-if I wasn’t sure before we’d know this is love.

I can’t wait to be back with him. Back with my best friend.

No matter if he has to work a lot today and tomorrow I will be so happy to be there when he gets home.

Last final this afternoon, then packing, dinner and gelato with my sister and tomorrow (really early tomorrow) I will be on my way to see my honey. My junior year will be over.

I am so fortunate to start summer with my amazing man.

Also, I’m leaving to study abroad very soon! Its only a month away!

Also, I am the luckiest girl. I hurt my boyfriend big time, he decides to forgive me, I say I need to be there this weekend and he makes it happen. My man is the best one in the world, at least for me. I am over the moon. As soon as finals are over I am starting my break off by going to my other half. I’m not trying to gloat, I am just really astonished how things have been working. 

I just know we need some actual time, we are fortunate enough to be able to pull it off. Thank you Army for letting us work with you.

Love is such an amazing thing. People who are touched by it are simply blessed. I am a lucky one to have a love that truly has conquered everything it has been set up against. I had to go through terrible things, in particular ones that were my fault, to realize how spectacular love and forgiveness can be. 

I am simply incredibly thankful to have such a wonderful man. I love him more than anything.

Hmmm, that lovely feeling when you are talking to your boyfriend, you are so excited to talk and then everything blows up in my face. Lovely. 

Last night Derek and I reminisced on the phone for a while. We mostly talked about his pre-deployment leave, summer 2010, when everything began.

We started off so strong, we only had two weeks and they were almost perfect. He deployed shortly after and we both knew I was going to be here waiting when he got back.

That summer was everything, our first kiss and when we fell in love. I can’t believe its been almost two years since it all started and I can’t believe I am still so sure that we can make it through anything. Derek is my other half and it didn’t take long at all for me to realize it.