Just a little update: things have been going amazingly. Derek has been home for a whole week now and I still can’t get over that he isn’t going back. He is going to be in the reserves, but that will still let him be around 90% of the time! We have been spending as much time as possible together, which isn’t always a lot, but tons more than what it was. I’ve already become so used to having him around.

Also, work has been going really well. I’ve been working my little booty off to move up at my job and I think so far so good! I’m actually enjoying work, so that is always a huge plus!

And, school started this week. I am commuting from my parent’s house more than an hour away from campus, so I only have classes two days a week. Which also lets me work a lot. 

So between school being two days a week and work usually being five, I am a busy busy lady, but I am loving my life right now. 

I really feel like I have grown so much and I like where I am. I always want to continue to grow, but I am really loving the journey. 

Now, honestly, I am beat and I just want to lay in bed, but I do feel incredibly accomplished. 

A few months ago I couldn’t run two miles, now I am up to nine. The half marathon is only about three weeks away, 13.1 that day.

I will fight through anything to finish. No matter what, I am going to finish that run, hopefully around my time goal. 

I usually run pretty slow, but I run far, so today I decided to run faster today. I shaved my time down and I am really happy about that. I know it was a short distance and etc. however, I made progress. I am also sticking with this. 

I was not the athlete in my family, in my group of friends, in my relationship, but I’m starting to become that. 

I just found out this morning that the program I applied to accepted me for this summer’s study abroad program. I will be in London for two months this summer, with a school trip to Paris. I will also hopefully travel around other parts of Europe as much as possible.

Now it is all about planning and I am incredibly excited! I have dreamed of studying fashion in London for a long time! I visited London when I was 15, but only for about five days, it was not enough, eight weeks still probably won’t be enough, but it will be amazing. Also it is a great time because the summer olympics will be going on while I am there!

The things I learn and the ways I will grow are just going to be fantastic. I am nervous because it is a foreign country and I will be on my own, but to grow one needs to step outside of their comfort zone and that is exactly what I will be doing, but that to the extreme.

This is what I have wanted and worked for and now it is coming together and I’m going to do it. 

One more thing, because of this and the extra credits I will graduate in May 2013. At the age of 21, an entire year ahead of schedule. I only graduated high school in May of 2010!

I am training for a half marathon in 10.5 weeks and thus far I haven’t run that far or that fast. It was a 12 minute mile and only three miles, but it is progress for me and I am so proud of myself.

I always thought I was unathletic, when in actuality I never tried. Now I am trying and I am progressing.

I will finish 13.1 miles at a 10 minute mile pace. I’m going to do it.

Today is a good day.

I went to see my baby and it was the perfect weekend. We needed it and we got it. We went out to a nice restaurant and got all dressed up. We also went to museums, around Raleigh, saw Star Wars in 3D, took a bubble bath, he gave me a massage, we just spend lots of quality time together and it couldn’t have been a better weekend. He did so much for me, for us, and I can’t be any happier. Well unless, we were together. 

This weekend was almost doomed from the beginning, but it ended up being the best weekend we have had in a really long time.

I am so sure of our relationship.

Also, we decided we are going to move in together as soon as he gets out of the Army and moves back here. It should be in January.  

So, yesterday I ran 2.6 miles and last time I ran I did a little less than 2. That isn’t a lot, but that is a lot for me. I never ran, I hated it. I never worked out. I still am having trouble trying to get it into routine, however, I am working on it. Worked out 10/15 days, so I’m happy with that.

Also, I used to take melatonin to sleep, for years I did. Then I still had trouble sleeping. I used to wake up numerous times a night. I also used to have panic attacks and crazy anxiety, so I started taking some medication just when I needed it. Last night, going to bed I thought about it and I haven’t taken either in at least six months. 

I am so glad that things are getting better, partly because I am. 

Slow and steady wins the race.

I am so excited to start! I am so excited to learn everything they will teach me! It’s going to really help me advance in my career!

My lazy Tuesdays and any other days are quickly diminishing, I’m not really worried about that. 

I can’t wait to start :)

Diet-for real. Work-out. Eat well. No sweets. Get in shape.

Homework-no procrastination. For real. 

My body makes me feel like shit. I am doing this for me. Waiting for the last minute to do my homework stresses me out. I am doing this for me. 

I need to do more things for me. I need to get better than more than just diet and homework. I am a priority of mine. 

Thats all we can do at this point.