I am overwhelmed and stressed with the school and work load. Next week will be crazier than this week. I have a short term goal of getting to the week of Thanksgiving, it will just be calmer then, at least so I hope. That week I have a few days off, so I can get things done ahead of time and just focus on whatever the task is at hand. Everything is too much.

• I woke up to a flooded bedroom
• All my shit is wet and smelly
• My sister and I need to find an apartment pronto
• I need to go through the process of moving out of here
• I have a million projects to do
• I have a job, but the pay process takes like 3 months, so I am not getting paid
• I am super broke, I can’t afford christmas presents
• I never have time to do anything, besides work and school
• I am getting sick 
• My period is killing me today
• I need to get more sleep

/end whiny rant.

So between my school, internship, student organization and my long-distance-military relationship going through a lot, I am starting to crack. Everything seems so much more than it used to. School is harder. Work is more serious. Student Org is much more time consuming. My boyfriend needs to focus on his stuff at a time when I selfishly need support and comfort from him. Communication between us is back to a minimum. I also have a lot going on with my roommates and friends. It’s all too much for me, which makes me feel like a failure.

I’m stressed out and sick of being that way. Hello anxiety, I think we are going to become very close these next few days. Hey tears, I feel you creeping back. Hi emotions I hate to have, I see you’re here again.

I need to get through a few days or weeks (the time this will take is To Be Determined) and then I will be able to look back and be proud. Just getting there is the difficult part.

/end rant. 

that’s not normal, but I needed it. I am still sleepy and overwhelmed with what I need to do today. Ugh, I want to go away again. I have so much to do. I need to get started…