I go from happy to sad. Lonely to content. Spiteful to grateful. Upset to neutral. wanting everything to be different and wanting everything to be the same. Angry to adequate about things. Feeling terrible to fine.

Being like this scares me. I am worried that I never know what is going on in my head. I hate that I can’t control anything. I hate having anxiety and having it come over me without me being able to do anything.

I have had things to deal with. I have had things that have rocked my world. I’m trying to put the pieces back together, but that is much easier said rather than done.

I used to feel like I am a strong person, I can deal with whatever and come out better on the other side. Now I feel like I am crumbling. 

What do I want? What can I do? Where do I go? Ugh.