One side of my family a complete mess, we used to be super close and now we barely talk and it always seems forced. I have tried to fix things with my family, but it usually doesn’t work out well at all. My father and I no longer speak and my grandmother and I are barely holding on to our relationship.
My weekend started off amazingly- I went to my cousin’s house for a picnic last night. My cousins are the best, they always cheer me up and help me understand.
Then my man called me this morning at four and we got to talk for a little more than an hour, he always makes me feel better about everything. I forgot a lot of the conversation, but whatever. He is my world and that isn’t changing for a long time.
Now, I have to get shit done or relax, hmmmmm? I’ll stay in bed.
day 30: where do you see your future going with him/her?
As of now: I see our future going far. I can see us being together for a long time, if not, forever. I know we have something really special, something not many people have. I know we will do anything for each other and our love can rise through anything. I figure as long as we continue to remember what is important and what to appreciate: we are golden. We compliment each other really well just with the way we are and for now I don’t see why we wouldn’t last.
I see us being together through the end of my college/his beginning of college, the start of our careers, first few years of the blissful newlywed phase, having a biological child, adopting a child, raising our children, becoming successful in our professions and dealing with whatever life dishes. I see it pretty clearly.
For the past couple of days I have just been trying to plan trips.
They have got me incredibly excited about the upcoming months, time needs to move much much quicker, but it also made me realize my mom still thinks of me as such a child. Yup, I’m nineteen and I have my shit really together, but I’m the youngest daughter, I’m her baby. I have flown between different continents by myself (multiple times) and she is worried about me flying to NC by myself. There has to be something else behind this.
We have had many talks recently about her having to let me take off on my own adventures. I really love my mom and she has done an amazing job raising me and my sister, but now it’s my time….or it will be in a few weeks/months.